Saturday, September 30, 2006

Hey, Mr. Postman

Dear Mom,
Funny isn't it? by the time you're reading this, i must be dead but pls don't cry? It's enough that i won't be seeing you smile anymore, and i would as much as possible keep that image of u smiling rather than crying?
well, this is supposed to be a farewell letter but i don't wanna say goodbye. How about see you later? Someday we'll see eachother again? (OK MOM, i bet you're smiling now, cause for once, i am dramatic!)
First of all, thank you for giving me a home like no other. Thanks for giving me a place to look forward to everyday. Thank you for giving me a life filled with memories that I can cherrish forever. You're the best mom for me! Im sorry for the times i got you upset, i'm sory for the times i didn't follow your orders. I'm sorry for the times that i was hard headed. More importantly, Im sorry for the times i missed to give you a hug, a kiss or even say 'i love you' because i had somewhere to go. Mom, pls remember that you'll always be God's best gift to me. Love you!
Pls let Achi, dichi, carlo and dad know that i have always loved them even if i spend most of my time annoying them. Please let them know that all this time, i never meant to hurt them or make them cry. please let them know that i will always remember how they made me laugh and cry every time we're together. Because of that, i have with me the memories of having siblings that make you feel welcome anytime you want to go home. Again, thank you and i love you too!
Pls let my friends know that i would like to thank them for all the support and fun times that we've shared. I will surely miss their smiles, laughter and teasing. I will miss the times that we'll forget about everything and just laugh our lungs out. I will miss the times that I had a shoulder to cry on. I will miss the times when they adopt me everytime i don't have a place to go. I will miss the times that we shared food and took pictures. I will certainly miss every moment that we've spent together. However, everything comes to an end right? I'm just happy that my memories with them ended with a smile. Please tell them that in my burial, i want them to smile ok? Probably, i'll be smiling with them as well. In this way, i would feel that my funeral will just be like some other lunch time that we've spent together, smiling and laughing. Tell them that I love them too and I'm sorry if i had to say goodbye like this. Tell them that i will be seeing them soemtime again.
Pls let my teachers and yayas know that they have been second mothers to me, their guidance means a lot. though i dont show it often, i am grateful for everything they have taught and given me. Im sorry for he times i got them pissed. I really didn't mean it!:(
Finally, i would like my eulogy to be a happy one. Pls play the song "with a smile" by Eraserheads and "I'll Remember" by Madonna during my funeral. Finally, can everyone pls wear anything but black? Ifeel that black is such a dense color and besides making you look slim, it makes you really sad. I don't wanna have a sad death. Please, make it light for everyone? and i shall be happy watching you guys wherever I am.
P.S. I really meant it when i said i love you mom;)
Love with a thousand smiles,
Jeselle

Friday, September 01, 2006

Asking God

If you can ask God one question what will it be?
Well before I answer this question, it actually reminded me of a song by Joan Osborne called "One of us". The question is parallel to the lyrics:)
haha ok, seriously, if i can ask God one question, I would ask Him:

"When is judgement day?"

I know it's weird and funny to ask the question but seriously, i would like to live to see the day. Or is it even possible to be "alive" that day (ok, kung pwede may follow up question, yan ang susunod) I know life is short and time won't stop for anything. They say that in judgement day everything will be revealed and you will be judged accordingly. Certainly, I am afraid but we all gotta face it anyways. If there is such a date then I'd better prepare for it!:) ahhaa!! weird no? pero it's the ultimate question talaga! haha! oh well but as of now, enjoy life muna pero i would always have that in mind:)

If you could ask someone (dead or alive) something what and who will it be?
The person whom I will ask is my mother and my question will be:

"How does it feel to be a grandmother?"

I often stare at my mom whenever she holds her grandsons. it seems like a perfect picture. so sweet. I'm too shy to ask her beacuse she might just make me "bara" by saying that i think she's too old or that i should be a mother first. Well, newsflash! that won't happen in like a decade or so! hahaa! well she once threw a phrase at me hoping that i'll understand at my own language:

"Ang mga anak, capital iyan; ang mga apo ang interest"


SURPRISE! i don't get it. haha

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  • I'm Jeselle
  • From Las PiƱas, Philippines
  • i'm a senior, an ate, a sister, sachi, friend, chatmate, cheatmate, seatmate. i can be whoever u want me to be, i can be the nightmare in your dreams, or maybe the subject of your tsismis. i can be the person begging for food every recess and lunch time. i can be the girl laughing her lungs out during free time. i can be quiet so long as everyone IS quiet. i don't like bathrooms with three cubicles and have no water in it! so much for a BATHROOM! i hate people who are just excluded from the world.i believe in friendship, hugs and tears. call me cliche but i stick to the old times! and PS, I really want WORLD PEACE! haha! oh well! so much about me .. btw, i am not that VAIN! just a bit :)
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